I like no one.

These past few days:
I like no one that's part of my life right now.
Mostly my friends.
I haven't seen my best-friend for over a month.
And me and my other close friend... well, we're falling drastically apart.
The time when I had someone to confide in when I needed and had a shoulder to cry on when I wanted, finished.
Everyone disappeared. And it's not their fault.
I've become a loner, and for the first time in my life, I like it.
But at the same time, I hate that I like it.

I also haven't cried in a couple of days.
I force myself not to do so, and it's pretty hard when tears are rolling down and I want to stop crying.
And 2 tear-drops is all I get.
That's all I afford.
I don't want to be that overly-sensitive girl anymore.
It shows weakness. Something that I want to hide cause around others I have that tough attitude.
And if I want to be good in hiding it, I want to hide it around myself too.
But I wasn't always like this. This sensitive.
It started a couple of months ago, and I don't know why.
I hate it, and I'm actually doing something about it.

As regarding to the other resolutions?
I've almost done nothing of them.
I didn't start studying yet.
And I searched for a job in just one shop.
Blah.

But on the other hand, I'm spending a lot of time reading cause I've got 3 books to read and I really feel good about that. =]